Last night I had a dream. I don't remember anything about it, except that I was told to write down the vision. And that this would be the answer to my confusion.
I need to go back and give you some backround info. For about a month now, I have felt like I am running in circles. I cannot seem to get my brain wrapped around everything that is going on in my little world. My mind seems to be going ninety different directions. I need to focus! It has been very frustrating.
Well, I have been praying about it for a while, but not really submitting it to Him. I know; I know. Then I had a dream a little over a week ago(God uses dreams to show me things). I was at a carnival. I saw a man on a unicycle, juggling hats. The Holy Spirit showed me that I am juggling my thoughts because I am working from the flesh and not from faith.
So I started praying again. Lord, I get it, but I don't know what to do about it. Well, last night, I totally submitted everything to Him. I gave up. I am done trying to figure it out. Then I had the dream. Write down the vision. So I did. "What is the vision," you ask? Well, He told me to start with the things He has promised me. So here they are....
Every single person on my prayer list will be free from bondage. They will be healed and they will be free in 2010. There are 27 people on the list. IT IS FINISHED! That is the promise! I will cling to this unreasonably, no matter what I may see with my physical eyes. I choose to see with my heart. My heart knows the truth and it refuses to believe the enemies lies. I believe Him!
Chip and I will be completely debt free this year. We will be lenders and not borrowers. This is also a promise I am clinging to unreasonably, choosing to see with my heart.
And finally...I have a destiny. It is to walk in the supernatural. I will leave behind the things of this world and focus totally on the things of God. He is calling me to prove to His people(saved and unsaved) that He is a God of miracles. I am clinging to this one unreasonably too. It is the hardest one. Praise God! There are many out there who do not even believe this is possible. But I do. I believe with every fiber of my being that this is attainable here on earth. And I am putting every bit of my belief at the feet of Jesus. I have learned that this is where my belief is turned into faith. I recieve the faith He is giving me, and I am running toward my destiny. I will not be thwarted. I cannot say that there will be no doubt along the way, but I can say that it WILL NOT win! My God is GREATER than my doubt! He is greater than the lies, and He has a destiny for me. He has shown it to me. Now, all I have to do is run toward it with obedience. Faithfully obeying Him!
Thats the vision! It has been written!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
The Agreement Stops Here!!!!!!
Do you ever realize just how much we agree with the enemy? Seriously, its ridiculous. If we get a pain in our chest area, we think, "There must be something wrong with my heart?" If we hear a bone pop and then our back starts hurting, we think, "I have to go to the chiropractor." If we get a letter in the mail saying our car insurance has gone up fifty dollars per month, we think, "Well that sucks!" Sometimes we even agree with him on our moods. Someone may say something to us, or do something we don't agree with, and before we know it, we've lost our peace. It never occurs to us that it could all be a lie. So we unknowingly agree with him.
This is what the Lord has been showing me lately. I agree with the enemy entirely too much. All he needs is my agreement and he'll have his foot in my door. If he doesn't get my agreement, he is powerless. When Jesus died on the cross, He set us free from the sin in our lives. We are now under grace. We are free. The enemy cannot hurt us...unless we let him.
Does this speak to anyone besides me? As the Holy Spirit has been showing me all of this, I have been getting mad. I am tired of the enemy. I am tired of his lies. I am tired of him stealing from me. I am tired of him attacking me and my people every day. I was heading down a road of frustration(I wasn't just heading down it, I was running down it...fast). I began praying for God to open my eyes to all the lies that I am believing. Its unbelievable how much I have been agreeing with the enemy. So what am I getting mad at him for. All I have to do is change it.
Now I am praying for God to open my eyes to all the ways the enemy is ATTEMPTING to lie to me. I want to cut him off at the pass. I am not going to believe his lies anymore. My God said that now is my time for manifestation, and I BELIEVE Him. He said He is not only restoring my inheritance, but restoring it DOUBLE! I CHOOSE God. Won't you join me?
This is what the Lord has been showing me lately. I agree with the enemy entirely too much. All he needs is my agreement and he'll have his foot in my door. If he doesn't get my agreement, he is powerless. When Jesus died on the cross, He set us free from the sin in our lives. We are now under grace. We are free. The enemy cannot hurt us...unless we let him.
Does this speak to anyone besides me? As the Holy Spirit has been showing me all of this, I have been getting mad. I am tired of the enemy. I am tired of his lies. I am tired of him stealing from me. I am tired of him attacking me and my people every day. I was heading down a road of frustration(I wasn't just heading down it, I was running down it...fast). I began praying for God to open my eyes to all the lies that I am believing. Its unbelievable how much I have been agreeing with the enemy. So what am I getting mad at him for. All I have to do is change it.
Now I am praying for God to open my eyes to all the ways the enemy is ATTEMPTING to lie to me. I want to cut him off at the pass. I am not going to believe his lies anymore. My God said that now is my time for manifestation, and I BELIEVE Him. He said He is not only restoring my inheritance, but restoring it DOUBLE! I CHOOSE God. Won't you join me?
Monday, March 8, 2010
At His Feet--Oh, to Dwell and Never Leave
Today was awsome! I finally set things right with God again. All rebellion is gone. I am back at that place of complete obedience, and let me tell you, it feels good! God showed me that all I had to do was obey and sit at His feet.
I began thinking things like "Its not fun being obedient" and "Why do I always have to be the good one?" I never dwelled on these thoughts for very long, but they were always there. God showed me this morning through the life of Samuel, that obedience is a sacrifice to Him. I do love Him and respect Him enough to obey. So yesterday, I started doing everything He told me to do and immediately repenting when I missed His voice(because He is showing me the minute I do something that is not His perfect will, which has been my constant pryer to Him for quite a while now).
He also showed me, through the life of Samuel(I am doing a study on David), that it is okay to be grieved by the disobedience of others. It is NOT okay to focus on their wrong choices(instead of Him), or to let my grief cause me to sin. Like Samuel, I am to take that grief and cry out to the Lord in intercession for them. It must be an immediate obedience, because the enemy is good at getting me to focus on how others are missing their blessing.
That leads me to the renewing of my mind. God has called me to turn my mind over to Him, and I CHOOSE to do so. He showed me that I don't have to think on every thought that enters my mind. So today, I started a process. Every thought that enters my head, that I am not absolutely positive came from Him, I cast it into a box(figuratively speaking). I then trust that if it was from God, He will bring it back to me. So basically, I am refusing to think on anything that is not from Him. Today was day 1 of this process, and the enemy trid to bombard me with his thoughts. As, the day went on, and I continued prevail(Praise Jesus!), the process did get easier. I know that as I continue to do this, I will eventually be thinking totally with the mind of Christ versus the mind of the world.
And the only way to get there is to stay at His feet!
I began thinking things like "Its not fun being obedient" and "Why do I always have to be the good one?" I never dwelled on these thoughts for very long, but they were always there. God showed me this morning through the life of Samuel, that obedience is a sacrifice to Him. I do love Him and respect Him enough to obey. So yesterday, I started doing everything He told me to do and immediately repenting when I missed His voice(because He is showing me the minute I do something that is not His perfect will, which has been my constant pryer to Him for quite a while now).
He also showed me, through the life of Samuel(I am doing a study on David), that it is okay to be grieved by the disobedience of others. It is NOT okay to focus on their wrong choices(instead of Him), or to let my grief cause me to sin. Like Samuel, I am to take that grief and cry out to the Lord in intercession for them. It must be an immediate obedience, because the enemy is good at getting me to focus on how others are missing their blessing.
That leads me to the renewing of my mind. God has called me to turn my mind over to Him, and I CHOOSE to do so. He showed me that I don't have to think on every thought that enters my mind. So today, I started a process. Every thought that enters my head, that I am not absolutely positive came from Him, I cast it into a box(figuratively speaking). I then trust that if it was from God, He will bring it back to me. So basically, I am refusing to think on anything that is not from Him. Today was day 1 of this process, and the enemy trid to bombard me with his thoughts. As, the day went on, and I continued prevail(Praise Jesus!), the process did get easier. I know that as I continue to do this, I will eventually be thinking totally with the mind of Christ versus the mind of the world.
And the only way to get there is to stay at His feet!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Radical Obedience
Believe and obey. Obey and believe. These are the only two things that we have to do to walk in the supernatural with God. He only calls us to do two things! So why do they seem so very hard?
I have been walking in rebellion for 1 week now. God had been calling me to focus ONLY on Him, but I got caught up in focusing on disobedience. Well, guess what? Since I became so focused on disobedience and how much it hurt us, I, myself, started disobeying. I began doing the thing that I was hating. Why, you ask? Because I was focusing on it.
God showed me this morning that I started focusing on disobedience because I was trying to save a person that I love. I don't have that power. I am not the Almighty! He is! This is now part of my letting go process. I repented and now I CHOOSE to trust Him. I know that He will save this person from themselves and from their disobedience. And I know that there is nothing I can do to make it happen or to hinder the process. I also know that my disobedience and rebellion does not help the matter. And it definately does not help me.
The awsome thing is that through the whole thing, God was never mad at me. He still loves me just the same. My rebellion died on the cross with Jesus. Because of my faith in Jesus, when God looks at me, He sees righteousness. Glory to His name! How awsome is that?
So I am letting go. I CHOOSE to stop trying to save this person and anyone else for that matter. I CHOOSE to focus on God and seek His face with every minute I am given. I CHOOSE to radically obey Him, even when I don't feel like it, because I know that radical obedience takes me to a place where the miracles happen. I have had a glimpse of this place before, and I went running in fear. Well, now I am approaching again, but this time I do so boldly, with my new level of faith.
That's right. I finally accepted my new level of faith, and Jesus and I are only a few steps away from the other side. Praise God!
I have been walking in rebellion for 1 week now. God had been calling me to focus ONLY on Him, but I got caught up in focusing on disobedience. Well, guess what? Since I became so focused on disobedience and how much it hurt us, I, myself, started disobeying. I began doing the thing that I was hating. Why, you ask? Because I was focusing on it.
God showed me this morning that I started focusing on disobedience because I was trying to save a person that I love. I don't have that power. I am not the Almighty! He is! This is now part of my letting go process. I repented and now I CHOOSE to trust Him. I know that He will save this person from themselves and from their disobedience. And I know that there is nothing I can do to make it happen or to hinder the process. I also know that my disobedience and rebellion does not help the matter. And it definately does not help me.
The awsome thing is that through the whole thing, God was never mad at me. He still loves me just the same. My rebellion died on the cross with Jesus. Because of my faith in Jesus, when God looks at me, He sees righteousness. Glory to His name! How awsome is that?
So I am letting go. I CHOOSE to stop trying to save this person and anyone else for that matter. I CHOOSE to focus on God and seek His face with every minute I am given. I CHOOSE to radically obey Him, even when I don't feel like it, because I know that radical obedience takes me to a place where the miracles happen. I have had a glimpse of this place before, and I went running in fear. Well, now I am approaching again, but this time I do so boldly, with my new level of faith.
That's right. I finally accepted my new level of faith, and Jesus and I are only a few steps away from the other side. Praise God!
Monday, March 1, 2010
Fear Not
It really hurts to watch the people you love hurt themselves, knowing there is nothing you can do about it. You know there is nothing you can say, do or hit them with that will make them see that their pain is because of their own choices. It just hurts. If it hurts me this much, I cannot imagine how much it hurts Father God. Before I went down this though process, I cannot honestly say I had ever thought about how much my diobedience hurt Him. I knew it hurt those around me, and I even came to the realization of how much it hurt me, but I never really thought about Him.
He has shown me that my diobedience ties His hands. When I refuse to obey, I block Him from working in my life. The sad thing is, sometimes I do this even though I know better. Sometimes, I flat out rebel. Rebel, according to Webster, means to resist authority or control, to show or feel a resistance to something. Well, now, that is not letting go is it?
Then He showed me that I rebel because of fear. I am living in fear. Fear that He will not do what He says He will do. Fear that I am not who He says I am. I am not letting go because I don't trust Him to take care of things, and I don't trust me not to mess them up. There are 365 "fear not"s in the bible;one for every day. You would think that would be enough for me. I can tell you they are there, but I cannot tell you where they all are or what they say not to be afraid of. So I think I will start studying them. Hopefully I can gain more revelation on how to let go.
By the way, walking through one day of totally letting go started out fun and ended up in tears. But it is still fun, because I know how it will end. It will end with Him in control, and me in complete freedom. Glory to His Name! Yahweh Nissi, my God of Victory!
He has shown me that my diobedience ties His hands. When I refuse to obey, I block Him from working in my life. The sad thing is, sometimes I do this even though I know better. Sometimes, I flat out rebel. Rebel, according to Webster, means to resist authority or control, to show or feel a resistance to something. Well, now, that is not letting go is it?
Then He showed me that I rebel because of fear. I am living in fear. Fear that He will not do what He says He will do. Fear that I am not who He says I am. I am not letting go because I don't trust Him to take care of things, and I don't trust me not to mess them up. There are 365 "fear not"s in the bible;one for every day. You would think that would be enough for me. I can tell you they are there, but I cannot tell you where they all are or what they say not to be afraid of. So I think I will start studying them. Hopefully I can gain more revelation on how to let go.
By the way, walking through one day of totally letting go started out fun and ended up in tears. But it is still fun, because I know how it will end. It will end with Him in control, and me in complete freedom. Glory to His Name! Yahweh Nissi, my God of Victory!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Let Go or Drown
He wants me to let go. Let go of what? Everything! I have struggled with this for over a month now. My inability(or should I say unwillingness) to let go is what has taken me backward in my journey with God. I don't know how to let go. And to be honest, I don't know that I want to. But I want to want to. Does that make sense?
He told me in late December that I didn't have to understand everything. So I stopped asking Him why all the time. I realized that if He wanted me to know, He would tell me. What I didn't realize is that this was just the beginning of the letting go process. I guess I was hoping that was it. Of course I was! I am a former control freak! And I find the longer I cling to the things of this world, the more I revert back into controlling my own life. I don't like it! I don't want to be in control again. I messed it up royally the first time. But how do I finish letting go?
He gave me the answer to that yesterday as I was talking with my pastor. I have to stop analyzing everything. As I let it soak in, He showed me that I analyze myself more than anything else. I was willing to let go of analyzing everyone and everything else, just not me. And the longer I put off letting go, the more I go back into old habits. Old habits suck!
So here's the thing...let go or drown. Last Wednesday, I took His hand and started walking on water with Him. On Friday, I let go of His hand, picked up the things of this world, and started treading water. I can still look up and see Him, but if I don't let go, I will soon drown. I can only hold my breath for so long. If I don't let go, I will be conformed to the things of this world. That is not what I want at all.
I choose to let go. I choose to give Him my mind and let Him transform it. He has shown me how to start, and I know that as I obey, He will show me how to continue. This too was won on the cross. Thank you Jesus! So the journey of letting go continues. As it turns out, I am willing when my only other option is drowning. And I don't want to be conformed to the things of this world. I want to be transformed by the renewing of my mind. I give you my mind, Lord. I choose You.
He told me in late December that I didn't have to understand everything. So I stopped asking Him why all the time. I realized that if He wanted me to know, He would tell me. What I didn't realize is that this was just the beginning of the letting go process. I guess I was hoping that was it. Of course I was! I am a former control freak! And I find the longer I cling to the things of this world, the more I revert back into controlling my own life. I don't like it! I don't want to be in control again. I messed it up royally the first time. But how do I finish letting go?
He gave me the answer to that yesterday as I was talking with my pastor. I have to stop analyzing everything. As I let it soak in, He showed me that I analyze myself more than anything else. I was willing to let go of analyzing everyone and everything else, just not me. And the longer I put off letting go, the more I go back into old habits. Old habits suck!
So here's the thing...let go or drown. Last Wednesday, I took His hand and started walking on water with Him. On Friday, I let go of His hand, picked up the things of this world, and started treading water. I can still look up and see Him, but if I don't let go, I will soon drown. I can only hold my breath for so long. If I don't let go, I will be conformed to the things of this world. That is not what I want at all.
I choose to let go. I choose to give Him my mind and let Him transform it. He has shown me how to start, and I know that as I obey, He will show me how to continue. This too was won on the cross. Thank you Jesus! So the journey of letting go continues. As it turns out, I am willing when my only other option is drowning. And I don't want to be conformed to the things of this world. I want to be transformed by the renewing of my mind. I give you my mind, Lord. I choose You.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Shipwrecked
Do you ever feel like the enemy has unleashed all of hell to keep you from pressing on toward the mark? Well, me too. Everything around me is mocking me, telling me I have it wrong, or I wont make it. But every bible study, devotional, book or sermon I turn to tells me to BELIEVE. Believe what? Well, He answered that for me today.
Recently He has shown me that the season I have been in is over. He called me to get into the boat and go to the other side(the new season). Well, I need a new level of faith before I can get to the other side, becuase the demons controlling my future are bigger than anything I have ever seen before. The great news is He who is in me is greater than those demons. All I have to do, is let go of me and accept the new level of faith. DUH! Why isn't that as easy as it sounds? Is anyone realting?
So as it turns about, because I have refused to accept my new level of faith, my boat has shipwrecked(think Paul in Acts 28). But like Paul, I must not quit, because I have a promise; I have a destiny. So now I must swim, and as the waves come crashing over my head, I will say "I believe God's promise. I will make it. I have a destiny."
About the time that I let go of me and told Him I was ready, that I can swim and I am ready and willing to keep going, He showed me that I don't have to swim at all. If I swim to the other side I will be exhausted and wet when I get there. He wants me to be dry and well rested.
What am I to do you ask? All I have to do is look up from the water. Jesus is holding His hand out. When I take it, and keep my eyes on Him, I can walk with Him to the other side! Praise God! Hallelujah!
So here I go. I took His hand and I am currently walking on water! I am keeping my eyes on Him(because we all know what happens if I don't), and I am BELIEVING, for what, I still do not know. But I am sure that His will for my life is so much more than I could ever hope for. So I trust Him and I believe.
And what about the mockers from hell? Well they are still there, but I am choosing not to listen to them, because I know how there story ends. They may think they can change my destiny, but they better think again. This chic is going to rise to all that He has for me baby! And she is going to do it with the grace and favor of the Lord upon her!
Now I urge you, dont't wait until your boat crashes. Go ahead and take His hand and walk with us to the other side my friends. I love you all, now come and join us!
Recently He has shown me that the season I have been in is over. He called me to get into the boat and go to the other side(the new season). Well, I need a new level of faith before I can get to the other side, becuase the demons controlling my future are bigger than anything I have ever seen before. The great news is He who is in me is greater than those demons. All I have to do, is let go of me and accept the new level of faith. DUH! Why isn't that as easy as it sounds? Is anyone realting?
So as it turns about, because I have refused to accept my new level of faith, my boat has shipwrecked(think Paul in Acts 28). But like Paul, I must not quit, because I have a promise; I have a destiny. So now I must swim, and as the waves come crashing over my head, I will say "I believe God's promise. I will make it. I have a destiny."
About the time that I let go of me and told Him I was ready, that I can swim and I am ready and willing to keep going, He showed me that I don't have to swim at all. If I swim to the other side I will be exhausted and wet when I get there. He wants me to be dry and well rested.
What am I to do you ask? All I have to do is look up from the water. Jesus is holding His hand out. When I take it, and keep my eyes on Him, I can walk with Him to the other side! Praise God! Hallelujah!
So here I go. I took His hand and I am currently walking on water! I am keeping my eyes on Him(because we all know what happens if I don't), and I am BELIEVING, for what, I still do not know. But I am sure that His will for my life is so much more than I could ever hope for. So I trust Him and I believe.
And what about the mockers from hell? Well they are still there, but I am choosing not to listen to them, because I know how there story ends. They may think they can change my destiny, but they better think again. This chic is going to rise to all that He has for me baby! And she is going to do it with the grace and favor of the Lord upon her!
Now I urge you, dont't wait until your boat crashes. Go ahead and take His hand and walk with us to the other side my friends. I love you all, now come and join us!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Its all about Him
I am starting a daily quest for His face. I have come to realize that when I keep my focus totally on God, I operate in the heavenly and supernatural realm, instead of the things of this world. Recently, I have become caught up in the things that this world has to offer me again, and I don't like it. So, prompted by the Holy Spirit, I am blogging about seeking Him first and foremost in my life. I am putting off the things of this world, and putting on the full armor of God. This will be a wonderful process where there will be lots of flesh dying. Oh, that I might know Him more! It will be a journey worth traveling.
My committment is this: I will obey the Holy Spirit in everything. When He says jump, I will jump. I will not question Him in the things that He is telling me to do(those of you who know me know this is hard for me, because I have to know/understand everything). I will allow His grace and favor to flow in my life. I am on a mission to awaken the Lord and see His glorious face. I will be learning to keep my focus totally on God, even when everything around me is screaming my name(think Elisha keeping his focus on Elijah even with a chariot of fire beckoning him). Instead of focusing on the miraculous things that God is doing in my life, I choose to focus totally on Him. I want more of Him, and He is showing me how to get it. I only have to obey! Obedience is the key. He is not free to work in my life without it.
So, I will be blogging my journey as an act of obedience and to keep me accountable(He is teaching me how to be consistent). I urge you to join me in this journey. It will change your life!
My committment is this: I will obey the Holy Spirit in everything. When He says jump, I will jump. I will not question Him in the things that He is telling me to do(those of you who know me know this is hard for me, because I have to know/understand everything). I will allow His grace and favor to flow in my life. I am on a mission to awaken the Lord and see His glorious face. I will be learning to keep my focus totally on God, even when everything around me is screaming my name(think Elisha keeping his focus on Elijah even with a chariot of fire beckoning him). Instead of focusing on the miraculous things that God is doing in my life, I choose to focus totally on Him. I want more of Him, and He is showing me how to get it. I only have to obey! Obedience is the key. He is not free to work in my life without it.
So, I will be blogging my journey as an act of obedience and to keep me accountable(He is teaching me how to be consistent). I urge you to join me in this journey. It will change your life!
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